Scott Janzen's Hope Story
One step after another...
Thinking that I knew what was best for me in life.
Waking up every morning and going to bed every night, thinking to myself, what can I do to feel loved today? I thought that doing something that would make me feel important and have people care about me was the key to life.
Going from relationship to relationship, wearing my heart on my sleeve and giving into temptation over and over again was my way of thinking that I was loved.
I tried to find love in whatever way I could and I was continuously trying to find that person that I thought I was supposed to be with, who would fill that “gap” that I knew most people had. Meanwhile, I was pursuing a career as a police officer to fill my “need” of feeling important and changing the world in the way that I thought God had for me.
The passion I had given to myself for policing and the thought of pursuing someone that would walk next to me through this adventure, and support me, was my motivation in life.
After graduating college in 2012; I moved to Toronto to pursue policing further while living with my at-the-time fiancée. I had felt somewhat accomplished and loved. I had moved to the “BIG CITY” where I would pursue my passion for the police force and be trained at the same place that all of my friends were trained.
I lived in the same city as my best friend, and I was already living with someone who supported me through all this.
Life couldn’t get any better, right? That was far from right as only a few months into the move everything around me began was crumbling down.
My passion for the police force was tumbling as I let the current job I was in control my life, my relationship was diminishing, and I was spending less and less time with my best friend who now lived in the same city as me!
To add to all of this, the market had taken a huge drop back in Manitoba and I was in major debt, therefore my focus had turned to money and how my finances seemed to add up higher and higher while living in a very expensive city.
I started to not care about anything in life as I resorted back to my ways of giving into temptation with other women and I began to wonder..... Where is God?
Why is He letting me do all this stuff? Does He still love me? If so, how can any of this change? I had hit ROCK BOTTOM.
I grew up in a small town in Manitoba, Canada in a loving and God-filled home.
My family went to church on a regular basis and my parents were heavily involved in the church. I believed in God with all of my heart and that is all I really thought I needed to do. I didn’t understand the thought of actually having a personal relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ. I just thought that I had to believe.
I had no clue the impact that He could have through me and that He actually has plans for my life.
I had always thought that I had to make the plans for my own life and Jesus would just accept me. Don’t get me wrong, Jesus does love us and accept us for who we are; however, He wants us to get to know Him personally and intimately. He wants us to live through Him as He has created us all to worship Him!
Romans 12:1-2 "Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God--this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will."
During my teenage years, I always felt like the outsider.
I didn’t have many friends. I felt quite bullied and judged by others on things that I did on a daily basis. It was hard in a small town to not be loved by more than a handful of people when you knew almost everyone. Little did I know that the only friend that truly matters is, and will always be, God.
God wants to be our friend.
He is the only friend that we truly need and He WILL provide the rest. All we have to do is trust in Him.
Ten years later, here in Victoria, during my hike, God climbed a mountain to rescue me. He caught up to me at the top and overwhelmed me with His love. I knew at that moment that I needed to make a change, and that change was to see the realization that GOD WANTS TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME.
I quit one of my full time jobs and immediately began searching for a church to call home.
A few weeks later, I found my home church. I found my God. I found myself through Him. He has given me HOPE!
In the midst of this, God also introduced His beautiful bride-to-be for me, Hayley!
EXCITINGLY, ONLY THREE MONTHS LATER, GOD REVEALED TO ME THAT HAYLEY AND I WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED, AND RIGHT AROUND THIS TIME HAYLEY WENT AWAY TO EUROPE FOR SIX WEEKS. Knowing that God had spoken to me about marrying Hayley gave me so much hope and joy that I didn’t even know how to react.
SIX MONTHS LATER I PROPOSED TO HAYLEY, AND IN OCTOBER OF LAST YEAR WE WERE MARRIED!!!! :D
Through this last year and a half God has changed my entire outlook on life. I now wake up each morning and go to bed every single night seeking Him first and trying my best to place Him above all else in my life. God has shown me that His plans for my life are to serve Him each and every day. Hayley and I can’t wait to see where God takes us, not only in our marriage but throughout each day of God’s Story for Us.
We dearly hope that HOPE CHARGED has inspired you to try to seek GOD TO YOUR FULLEST EACH AND EVERY DAY.
God Loves Us more than we can ever dream or imagine and He can’t wait to build a close and intimate relationship with you through Jesus Christ!
I can see clearly now that God was with me every step of the way. One step after another...
‣‣‣ hope charged verses ‣‣‣
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
John 14:6 I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Philippians 1:21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.